what will you all do when smellys gone???

we are in the middle of packing and its a desaster...everyones screaming (well for the sake of an italian family we are just talking normally) we are bringing to much stuff, we dont know what to bring...its horrible...

i hate this leaving home business and i dont know why...last year when i went to new york by myself is was so not like this...i was excited to go on a trip by myself and i wasn't home sick at all...but everytime i go on a family vacation i get totally home sick...how does that make ANY sense?

also...i dont know about this going away for a month business ...the last time we went away for a month was 3 years ago when we flew off to italy ...it was totally different then tho...i had a boyfriend who i missed and would call every chance i got ...i had things to come back to when i got home ...i had expectations...

for this trip i have none of the above...nothing to look forward to when i get home...no one left behind to miss...im basically 100% free to do whatever ...and i think that scares me some because im not sure what it all holds for me...

i will be excited when i get there...and when i come home i will look back and be so happy that i went and got to experience everything...but right now...sitting here with crap all over my floor waiting to get stuffed in a suit case...i cant help but dread it all...i hate that i get so emotional about going away...

so i have all your address and im going to send you all post cards so expect them eventually...i dont think i actually get to australia until the 17th or 18th or something so i will try and send them out as soon as i get there so that they will come super quick...

i'll post one last time before i leave tomorrow morning...

i have so much to pack...someone come do it for me?!?!?!?