we want more then this world got to offer...

i just finished cleaning a kitchen covered in pasta sauce...and the sad thing is...i never tasted any of it...it got made but not tasted...what is that about??? i now have to stay up against my will and order pictures for my mother...but i guess since its her birthday tomorrow i should just shut up and do it...im in a pensive state currently...and thats not a bad thing...sometimes you just need to sit and think for a while...get everything organized in your head and figure out how the hell you are going to get through the next month and a half...dear god its pretty much november...bring on the rain...i remember what i was doing a year ago tonight...and how utterly crappy it was...and how utterly crappy this time of year was...and how now is 100 times better...and now when i smile its for real...i keep comparing last year to this year...when really theres no comparison at all...my hands are numb from the cold...