i feel but i, cant find the words...

i survived two thousand and five...didnt really think i would actually...

when i look back on the year that was i can not even believe all the things i have been through...this was by far the most amazing...horrible...emotional...creative year ever...

a review if you will...

• broke up with my boyfriend of three years...to everyones dismay
• emotional stress galore
• TSUNAMI RELIEF CONCERT with on cool dude
• became overly obsessed with matt goods music and stole all my brothers cds
• matt introduced me to blogging...msn style
• got myself a crazy boy...but those find times ended fast
• ARTS COUNTY FAIR - Matt Good & Metric!!
  
• volunteered at my highschool and had a following of grade 8 posse
• went to new york and saw the rolling stones
• went to parties with crazy mexicans
• LIMBLIFTER
  
• got my wisdom teeth taken out
• finally got a real blog
• WARPED TOUR
• took some classes at UBC
• BECK
  
• had drunkin movie nights with my family - wayne and darth
• family vacations in the mountains with bruce cockbrun...
  
• family picnics
• FOX SEED PARTY
• continued to work in a wonderful office
• PNE
  
• PEARL JAM
• sleepover
• staring my third year of fashion school
  
• OASIS
  
• i got bangs
• I MET MATT GOOD...at a private concert
• failed my driving test
• finally got asked out by hot boy *heart*
• dance alert
• motorcycles!!!
• cute adventures
  
• METRIC
• halloween
  
• made crazy clothes in school
• MATT GOOD CONCERT!!!
• met wicked bloggers...made a weekend out of it
• australian visitors
  
• heart broken *sniffle*
• internship interviews
• classy affairs
• christmas parties
• photoshoot
  
• finally a hockey game
• christmas
• gangsta galore

the one thing i asked for in 2005 was to have experiences...good or bad...just expereinces...i wanted to stop being lame and sit at home doing nothing...i wanted to get out and live life...learn lessons...meet people...and it truly seems that i did all of that this year...there was a lot of emotional heart ache behind the scenes all through out the year...but in looking back at the list...with all the things i have done...i cant believe this is my life...

i am most thankful for is this blog and all the people i have met through it and all the opportunities that i got this year because of it...crazy how this internet works eh??

see you all in 2006...

MUSIC - Limblifter - Vicious

i was shaking at the knees could i come again please?

dario and i went to a hockey game last night...finland vs. america...i loved that everyone cheered for finland and hated america...no offense...but seriously...

i continued my gangsta i'm gonna beat the shit out of you face trend...it does me well...dario says i try to hard...im gonna beat the shit out of him...

the game was boring...except for the first period...lots of goals were scored and finland was winning...so instead i bored dario with stories about boys and family...

the game reminded me of D2 or D3...which ever one where the mighty ducks become team usa and they faced germany and then coach bombay tries to dress like the german coach and the players get mad...the movie made me have a huge crush on EMILIOOOOOOOOOO...im gonna go watch it now...

i brought home made christmas goodies in a ziplock bag...dario totally made fun of me...then ate it all...he thought it was SOOO funny that i brought cookies with jam on them...but i dont get it...

we went to starbucks and some guy totally hit on me...he was trying to make small talk about christmas...he was cute...

p.s. i totally love that you guys dig the last post...i so didnt wanna post so i just randomly wrote what came to my head...and now if i try that again it will totally be contrived and bad...

MUSIC - AC/DC - Thunderstruck

When I get what I want, I never want it again

im sick

i feel like trash

but i still made a three course meal

i cut onions and cried

over the loss of you

tho they aren't related

my hair is soft

i must blow dry it

it smells like pre steamed loved

i cried over the loss of you

they could be related

i have to go out now

free tickets musnt go to waste

i'll go for some hot chocolate and a smoke before hand

its what i loved to do with you

i shouldn't let myself feel this way

but sometimes i just give in

MUSIC - Hole - Miss World

it's christmas time again...it's time to be nice to the people you can't stand all year

• boxing day was yesterday which meant all the rossis (dads side of the family) got together for christmas goodness
• as always we were badd ass gangstas
• i taught my little skater cousins how to be cool and gangstas
• jake and i talked about the time we were online and web camed it with mike
• jake and i took an emo pictures just for mike
• james wore a really hot argyle sweater
• james wore my ring and looked like a too cool gay model
• elise and i spent the eve hitting on each other thru text messages
• elise and i gossiped
• alexis seemed sad and we talked about beck
  
• alexis gave me back my beatles cd
• laura got the same cell phone as me
• laura and i were obsessed with our phones the whole night
• my dad kept looking at me in a pissed off way when i was taking pictures
• i knew it was all an act tho...cause i do the same thing
• i gave my uncle paul a magnet with a picture of himself being checky
• he showed everyone and said that i was going to take the picture and put it on hot singles.com
• there was a lot of jumping on people and goofing around
• and stealing shoes and hitting with pillows
• my brother wasnt there which made it less fun because him and jake didnt act stupid
  
• there were no after eights which made me mad
• they are boxing day tradition and my most favorite - chocolate and mint people...
  
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• i put all the pictures up on here so check them out...it explains
• there are some on here too...pretty much the same thing...but some of christmas too...

MUSIC - Blink 182 - I Won't Be Home For Christmas

mend up your stocking hole cause this lump ain't made of coal...i've got a boner for Christmas

i think christmas is really more fun for kids...the anticipation of santa...having new toys to play with...visiting people...getting a new outfit to wear...

when you get older theres just not that wanting ness to get up early and run to the christmas tree...and half the time you really dont need or want anything because you just buy whatever you want through out the year anyways...and especially if you are alone on christmas it can be rather depressing and not fun at all...

i have to say that i was totally not looking forward to christmas this year but to my surprise it turned out better then expect...

as kids christmas was insane...we would get up early and open the presents in our stockings...then it was off to morning mass...then home again where my moms parents and my uncle and my aunt would all come over and we would open presents then have a big lunch together...then it would be off to go visit my dads parents out on their farm...and then off to one of my dads 9 brothers and sisters for dinner...it was a jam packed day...

now with everyone older and only one set of grandparents things are less hectic and less adventurous...

this year for christmas eve we went to my moms brothers house for dinner and presents...we drank ourselves silly with all these fancy drinks my uncle was mixing for us...my aunt always makes it a really classy affair...but we are all older now so gifts aren't as fun and exciting...nor are there as much...my aunt got me this really classy brush set from MAC makeup...since she works there and all...

christmas morning i was dragged out of bed at 8:30...i could have slept for much longer...

we opened our stockings and presents and all...i got a whole bunch of cds...i FINALLY finished my matt good collection...i had always had my brothers cds and just never went out to go buy my own...but now i finally have them all...

i also finally got Ghostbusters 1 & 2 on dvd with a special book which i was excited about...and the usual underwear...mittens...scarfs...gift certificates...

i also FINALLY got a new cell phone...everyone use to make fun of me b/c my old one was a brick...thats what they called it and seriously it was a brick...my new phone is a much music phone so its got wicked features and ed the sock talking on it...and then i went and downloaded Oh Be Joyful as my ringtone and i was so excited...b/c its the actual song and not some gay version of it...

so after gift opening we all went to christmas mass...then home for a brunchy lunch...just us...then dad and i went to the cemetery to visit my grandparents and cousin...

then we came home and had a really small quiet dinner with just my moms parents...i thought it was going to be really lame and so anti social of us but it was kinda nice to just spend christmas like every other day and not this huge day of rushing and going crazy...

after that we went and crashed my parents friends party b/c they had invited us if we wanted to stop by...and it ended up being nice...i get along with most of my parents friends so it was good...and my brother played poker with the little kids...it was cute...

all in all it was a good christmas this year...i hope all you guys had good ones too!!!

MUSIC - Nerf Herder - I've Got A Boner For Christmas

it's christmas eve and I've only wrapped two f*cking presents...

MUSIC - Blink 182 - Happy Holidays You Bastard

now listen up shes razor sharp...if she dont get her way she'll slice you apart

so the twins went to the hockey game...

so in other words i took my brother...but look how crazy similar we are in the pictures...scary...

i got free tickets from work and the seats were sweet ass...

even tho we lost there was 13 goals scored which made it damn interesting...

when music came over the p.a. system steven and i had a contest to see who could name the most songs first...we both did pretty good...

this was the seconds canucks game i had ever been too...and it was hella exciting...steven bought me a canucks mini flag which i waved proudly...

the guys sitting next to us smelled like they had taken a bath in a tub full of swiss army colone...which usually i like...but on them it was awful...

here are the beautiful half timer girls skate team thing...they skated to some east indian music...it was interesting...and then one of the girls fell...

ahh the orca coming around to drop off prizes...these games are so damn entertaining...

ahh my man number 37 jarkko ruutu...humm i wonder why i like him so much...ahaha...he kept starting fights it was the greatest...ahh bad asses...

my brothers favorite...77 anson carter...his favorite because of his crazy dreads...and b.c hes a visible minority and my brother has an obsession with visible minorities...he made me take like 100 pictures of him every time he was on the ice...

here is the stupid annoying oilers fan who everyone in the section wanted to kill...he would awkwardly kiss his girlfriend everytime they scored...it was weird...

ahh the half time show with our mascot Fine...they sling shoot him across the ice...it was classic...

hes the coolest ever...

during the game he wandered the stands in a santa suit and every one who passes him or went um to hug him he would stick their head in his mouth...it was so funny...

yes...a brawl...its really what hockey games are all about...

i dont really have any other pictures...other then a million blurry anson carter ones...

so we lost 6 - 7 but really who cares...well i do...but it was a good game with goals every two seconds and really i was just happy to be there...

this post seems really lame...

MUSIC - Motley Crue - Looks That Kill

Want to put my tender heart it in a blender watch it spin round to a beautiful oblivion

i just went with my dad to give blood...

so my arm is really numb...

and is taking me forever to type this out b.c it hurts...

i am feeble and tiny and week...

so you will have to wait until tomorrow to hear about the canucks game i went to last night...

eww christmas is like 3 days away...

MUSIC - Eve 6 - Inside Out

I...I was standing...you were there...two world collided...

last night i went out with some highschool friends...

back in the day these guys were my life...i wasn't allowed to do a lot but everything i did do i did with these guys...i loved then to bits...but then in grade 11 i met a boy...a boy who belonged to a different group of friends then mine...and like the stupid girl that i was i basically ended up ditching my friends for him and his friends...not completely but enough that all the little time i had i would spend with him...

so i ended up dating this boy for 3 years and i still kept in contact with my group but not so much...i am really lame with the phone and call no one ever...and everything i ever did i did with my boy...not with my friends...that and then we all started post secondary school and everyone was busy and so i basically never saw them...but thank god for sasha and her calling me and forcing me to go out...

earlier this year i broke up with my 3 year boy and so i had a lot of free time to fill...and so began my mission to forget about being obsessed with boys and rather to hook up with my old school chums again...and finally it's happening...

matt was over for dinner so he came along with us to Chambar...hes met them all before when we have hung out in the summer and stuff...

sasha (in the white) and i have been good friends since math in grade 9...shes the funniest chick i have ever met and all we do is joke around and act like perverts with each others dads...

i was in love with daniel for most of grade 8 and 9...tho we never dated...i was in love with a lot of boys in highschool...him and sasha are best friends and do everything together...they are a riot and i totally love them...

stephanie and rene are my italian stallions...in highschool we had code names for every hot guy we liked...and our lockers were covered with pictures of boys and the italian soccer team...we were so italy obsessed with wasnt even funny...

but i guess its kind of coming full circle ...my life that is...

i was in love with everything italian...boys, soccer, food, music...and then when i started dating 3 year boy all that changed to the opposite and i hated everything italian...but now its all coming back to me...my italian passion, my italian friends...all of it...and i couldn't be happier...

MUSIC - INXS - Never Tear Us Apart

Smells like the death of the last great cause

just a really quick note...

i bought my new day planner today and so i want everyone to tell me their birthdays so i can write them in and then i can send you all really cool birthday cards and birthday wishes smelly style!!!

and tell me the year too...if your not to shy...i want as many birthdays as possible so tell your friends...

ok YAY

MUSIC - Metric - List

but he's driving and striving and hugging the turns...and thinking of someone for whom he still burns

cest major friosity outside ...i need to go to the mall and buy stuff...since christmas is in a week...thats kinda scary...i bought all my gifts online but there are still a few things i need to pick up but the mall is going to be crazy so i am not looking forward to it...

dad and i went out yesterday to buy mom a motorcycle helmet for chirstmas (which i know she will hate but at least i will get use out of it) and i had this most amazing idea that i was going to save up and by a motorcycle to so dad and i could go crusing...and i could pick up hot boys in motorcycles...but then i totally forgot about the insurance factor...

dads fancy new motorcycle cost so much in insurance...and so i will definitly not have enough money to go and insure one...he says i should just be thankful that i have a sweet car thats paid for and i have no other expencies...but i want a motorcycle...i guess smellys got to save up lots...

the other day when dad and i went to go put my car in my name at the insurance place they made us fill out these 'gift papers' because my car was originally put in my dads name and he wanted to change it to my name so you say it was a 'gift' so you wont have to pay taxes on it...anyways the lady who was doing this for us but under 'gift relationship' boyfriend/girlfriend...insinuating that my dad was my boyfriend giving me his girlfriend tha car...and i was like WTF???

then the lady realized what she had done and asked if my dad was my boyfirend and im like NO hes my dad...SKETCH FEST...in this part of town we DONT date our dads...

MUSIC - Cake - The Distance

and then I saw her standing there with green eyes and long blond hair she wasn't wearing underwear at least I prayed that...

"Smelly Danielly: she might steal your pants but at least you can trust her"

MUSIC - Blink 182 - The Party Song

selling them whiskey and taking their gold enslaving the young and destroying the old

at last...a week of early starts and long cold days has come to an end and im am hella pooped...

now...i didnt do much this week...other then taking pictures and running around grabbing stuff for people and helping out where i could...but it was a lot of standing around waiting for stuff to happen which is what i figured...but over all it was a good experience...

so here are the pictures from today in photo essay style...hope you enjoy them...its neat to see a photo shoot up close and personal...

here we are at a local store that sells Lija doing a 'day out shopping' picture...

ahh where the magic happens...a day spent at the golf course...it looks totally sunny and nice and warm...but it was damn cold...this is one of the three models - Narda - such a cool name...she was older of the three but totally beautiful as you can tell...this is brook who is married to hockey player...and her ring is HUGE and makes me totally jealous...i love this outfit that she is wearing...this is how cold it is...notice us all bundled up...i wore 6 layers of shirts and two pants and socks and i still froze with a jacket and scarf on...

more pretty point grey golf course....

narda rakin it up - these are what you call Life Style shots...they are meant to look real life and not cataloguy...although they are going in a catalogue...

the photographer in motion...

brook in one of my favorite outfits...these clothes make golf look super cool i have to say...

i heart argyle...look how classy it is!

beautiful back drop

she got a good score...and actually beat narda in the putting challenge...

how could i not...

the photographer kept flirting with narda...they know each other from way back...it was so obvious he was in love with her...

aww the two girls looking like its warm in the summer when really they were shivering to death...

and now smelly is going to snuggle by the fire and fall asleep due to the extreme tiredness and coldness and head aching...

MUSIC - Iron Maiden - Run to the Hills